[There it was again. The comforting warmth that she'd been wanting to experience for so long. It felt so nice, unlike anything she'd ever experienced before.
Part of her really did want to come clean. To just talk about all the things she'd done. But would they still be around afterward? Would you they still be her friend?
She was so afraid.]
I'm really happy that you're here. You and the friends I've made.
[ She probably hadn't meant to say it, but Ursula had the intuition to figure it out, anyways. But it still stung a little to hear it said so frankly, Ursula's grip tightening just slightly, hopefully in a way that reassured her that Ursula wasn't going to be scared away by it. ]
I'm really glad you haven't. I want to keep being your friend, if you'll allow me.
[ Ursula shifted and scooted her chair over to sit right next to Monika, forgetting her coffee for the moment to wrap an arm around the girl's shoulder and draw her in for a hug, patting her shoulder. ]
You deserve it. I have no doubt about that. If you need to let out those tears, my shoulder's as good a place as any.
[ Ursula was more than content to remain there and just let the girl cry, smoothing over her back with gentle petting, rocking just slightly, just surrounding her with as much warmth and sincere care that she could. This girl... she didn't know the details of what lead her to this point, but she didn't really care, either. The details ultimately didn't matter. She, like any girl her age, like any person really, deserved a moment to feel happy, to forget their troubles, and feel appreciated and loved... ]
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Part of her really did want to come clean. To just talk about all the things she'd done. But would they still be around afterward? Would you they still be her friend?
She was so afraid.]
I'm really happy that you're here. You and the friends I've made.
It makes me want to be here, too.
I haven't always felt that way.
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It sounds like you're healing, though. It will be slow, but I have faith you'll be able to maintain it.
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Sometimes I wonder about that. It would be so much easier to just give up.
Honestly I'm kind of surprised I haven't killed myself already.
[Her eyes widen, as she registers what she'd just said. But it's too late to take back, now.]
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I'm really glad you haven't. I want to keep being your friend, if you'll allow me.
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It wasn't supposed to be this way.]
That...
[She squeezes back with her hand, and uses her other one to wipe away the tears forming in her eyes as she lifts her head to finally look at Ursula.]
Thank you. It makes me really happy to hear you say that.
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You deserve it. I have no doubt about that. If you need to let out those tears, my shoulder's as good a place as any.
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Could she really have been so fortunate? Monika didn't even think about questioning this, nor did she want to.
She moved in closer and began to wipe away more tears.]
I'm sorry.
[Why was she apologizing? She didn't even know, now beginning to sob more regularly.]
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