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[loadme]

Sounds like you're pretty busy!

Thanks again for your gifts the other day. I really liked them. I'll return the favor sometime, I promise!

[beariot]

You don't have to promise a return, Monika, they're gifts.

[loadme]

Oh.

What if I still wanted to get you something?

[beariot]

I guess I couldn't turn you down. I just don't want you to feel obligated, is all.

[loadme]

I'll think of something nice! Just for you~

In the meantime is it okay if we keep talking?

[beariot]

Always. Any updates from the homefront?

[loadme]

It's been pretty quiet, actually! Not a lot has been going on.

I've been busy working part-time and studying my magic.

[Let's do ourselves a favor and not mention the lingerie mishap.]

Oh, I never told you this but... I have a roommate now! Her name is Natsuru.

[beariot]

Oh? I'd love to meet them when I get back! Do you know if they take coffee or tea?

[loadme]

Tea! She definitely enjoys tea.

And I'd be happy to introduce you. She's really sweet and nice!

I'm really, really grateful that she moved in with me. I don't feel as lonely anymore.

[beariot]

[ Which was probably the most important thing Ursula could hear. ]

I'm so happy for you, Monika. I can't wait to meet her.

[loadme]

You have a couple of bonded, too, right?

Maybe I could meet them sometime!

[beariot]

I'm sure Fang would love to meet you. She can be a bit blunt at times, but she always means well.

Kaede, however [ ... ] That might take some time. She has trouble with socializing.

[loadme]

That's okay, I can talk to her whenever she's ready.

What about Fang? I know you told me a bit about her already, but I really want to know more!

[beariot]

Fang is [ ... ]

Fang is fire. The sort that both gives life and sometimes can singe you if you're not careful, but mostly the sort that warms away the cold and comforts a lonely soul. She's a light that can overwhelm everything if you become lost in it, but I never feel like I'm lost within her brilliance. If nothing else, I've started to shine again, myself, with her encouragement.

She's a hunter, a protector, and I'm the home she returns to.

[ Geeze, Ursula, no one asked for poetry here. ]

[loadme]

[Monika can't help but be a little jealous, here. Obviously she knew that Fang must've been important to her, but to have been described like this...]

You must really like her.

I'm happy for you.

[beariot]

[ Suddenly she's very aware of what she wrote. ]

Ah, I suppose I made it pretty obvious, huh?

[ Don't be jealous, you're getting her in a psl, Monika! ]

[loadme]

It's fine. Honestly, I'm not all that surprised.

[beariot]

Bonds have a way of magnifying everything. Thoughts, feelings, even the barest subconscious sensations. I suppose we were already compatible personalities and it just... accelerated it all.

[loadme]

You're very fortunate to have that.

[beariot]

Well you have a bonded, too, right?

[ Not that she could imagine Monika and Bendy having anything quite like what she and Fang had... ]

[loadme]

I do, and I'm very happy to have Bendy with me. But it's never really going to be the same as what you and Fang have.

And I'm alright with that.

[beariot]

[ Her teacher's intuition was telling her it very much wasn't... But this is where she wasn't sure she could help, either.

But that didn't mean she wasn't going to try. ]

Monika, I hope this isn't an 'uncool' thing of me, and adult, to suggest but

have you considered dating, here? As in courting another young person, near your age.

[loadme]

You're the coolest person I know, Ursula ♥

But no, I've never really thought about that! The last relationship I tried to have, it didn't go so well for me.

I was way too clingy, and I tried to be the center of their world.

Honestly it was pretty embarrassing.

I just don't want to fall back into old habits.

[beariot]

I think being able to recognize that is a sign of maturity, though. But I understand if you're hesitant, all the same.

[loadme]

It's more than just being hesistant.

Before I made it here, I wasn't a very good person.

[Did she even qualify as a person?

A question for another time.]

So I've been trying to change, and distancing myself from things I used to do before.

Do you think that's silly?