Well, at least in this world and mine... [ Ursula hummed, sipping her coffee. ]
I've been fascinated with them since I was little. My parents even named me after an asterism. [ Halfway true, at least. True enough that it worked for both names. ]
[ That last statement told Ursula a great deal without having to say things directly. While she may have been off the mark in literal terms, it didn't take much to notice what Monika meant by Ursula's fortune. ]
I'm more than happy to share those blessings with anyone I can. Helping others forget their troubles...
[ Ursula didn't want to argue with her how 'messed up' Monika was. She honestly didn't know, even if what she'd interacted with seemed like an awkward, lonely teenaged girl. She didn't want to presume she knew better. But she did know something for certain, reaching across the table to rest a hand on Monika's. ]
[There it was again. The comforting warmth that she'd been wanting to experience for so long. It felt so nice, unlike anything she'd ever experienced before.
Part of her really did want to come clean. To just talk about all the things she'd done. But would they still be around afterward? Would you they still be her friend?
She was so afraid.]
I'm really happy that you're here. You and the friends I've made.
[ She probably hadn't meant to say it, but Ursula had the intuition to figure it out, anyways. But it still stung a little to hear it said so frankly, Ursula's grip tightening just slightly, hopefully in a way that reassured her that Ursula wasn't going to be scared away by it. ]
I'm really glad you haven't. I want to keep being your friend, if you'll allow me.
[ Ursula shifted and scooted her chair over to sit right next to Monika, forgetting her coffee for the moment to wrap an arm around the girl's shoulder and draw her in for a hug, patting her shoulder. ]
You deserve it. I have no doubt about that. If you need to let out those tears, my shoulder's as good a place as any.
[ Ursula was more than content to remain there and just let the girl cry, smoothing over her back with gentle petting, rocking just slightly, just surrounding her with as much warmth and sincere care that she could. This girl... she didn't know the details of what lead her to this point, but she didn't really care, either. The details ultimately didn't matter. She, like any girl her age, like any person really, deserved a moment to feel happy, to forget their troubles, and feel appreciated and loved... ]
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Do the stars...
Do they always look like that?
So beautiful?
[She finally tears herself away from the telescope.]
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I've been fascinated with them since I was little. My parents even named me after an asterism. [ Halfway true, at least. True enough that it worked for both names. ]
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Now I can't help wonder if my name has any special meaning. I never really took the time to research and find out.
[At this point, she just heads to the table and sits across from her.]
You're... really lucky. To have all that.
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I'm more than happy to share those blessings with anyone I can. Helping others forget their troubles...
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Monika reaches for the coffee and takes the cup in both hands, though she doesn't quite start to drink it yet
She just... stares at the contents.]
I wish I had met someone like you earlier in my life.
Maybe then I wouldn't have been so messed up.
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I'm here now... That's what matters.
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Part of her really did want to come clean. To just talk about all the things she'd done. But would they still be around afterward? Would you they still be her friend?
She was so afraid.]
I'm really happy that you're here. You and the friends I've made.
It makes me want to be here, too.
I haven't always felt that way.
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It sounds like you're healing, though. It will be slow, but I have faith you'll be able to maintain it.
(CW: suicide)
Sometimes I wonder about that. It would be so much easier to just give up.
Honestly I'm kind of surprised I haven't killed myself already.
[Her eyes widen, as she registers what she'd just said. But it's too late to take back, now.]
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I'm really glad you haven't. I want to keep being your friend, if you'll allow me.
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It wasn't supposed to be this way.]
That...
[She squeezes back with her hand, and uses her other one to wipe away the tears forming in her eyes as she lifts her head to finally look at Ursula.]
Thank you. It makes me really happy to hear you say that.
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You deserve it. I have no doubt about that. If you need to let out those tears, my shoulder's as good a place as any.
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Could she really have been so fortunate? Monika didn't even think about questioning this, nor did she want to.
She moved in closer and began to wipe away more tears.]
I'm sorry.
[Why was she apologizing? She didn't even know, now beginning to sob more regularly.]
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