She probably hadn't needed to say any of that. Levi's reaction wasn't at all expected and now Ursula felt a stupid for basically everything she'd written. It takes a long moment for her to even respond.
The thing that sat with her the most, though, was...
"I still think it would've happened"
That was what had her tripping over herself. That idea, it just seemed... wholly not right. The music, the stardust, that had to all be it. Even if it felt like a cowardly thing to say, to not accept her own feelings or role in things, but. ]
I definitely don't want you to do anything unhealthy.
[that's a lie, but they don't really know what else to say when it feels like they've screwed something up. maybe they just pushed too hard or something. they can recover, right? they've already done it a couple times in this conversation.]
At any rate, I should come around your apartment soon. Don't worry, I won't show up uninvited, but I'd like to make more friends that aren't just online and I think Jill would be a good one to add to my circle. I also won't tell her about what we did if you don't want me to. I'm not telling anyone on my end of things.
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She probably hadn't needed to say any of that. Levi's reaction wasn't at all expected and now Ursula felt a stupid for basically everything she'd written. It takes a long moment for her to even respond.
The thing that sat with her the most, though, was...
"I still think it would've happened"
That was what had her tripping over herself. That idea, it just seemed... wholly not right. The music, the stardust, that had to all be it. Even if it felt like a cowardly thing to say, to not accept her own feelings or role in things, but. ]
I definitely don't want you to do anything unhealthy.
[ What a terrible response. She hated it. ]
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[that's a lie, but they don't really know what else to say when it feels like they've screwed something up. maybe they just pushed too hard or something. they can recover, right? they've already done it a couple times in this conversation.]
At any rate, I should come around your apartment soon.
Don't worry, I won't show up uninvited, but I'd like to make more friends that aren't just online and I think Jill would be a good one to add to my circle.
I also won't tell her about what we did if you don't want me to. I'm not telling anyone on my end of things.
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No, she
probably deserves to know. For the same reasons I told you about her.
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That would be one heck of a reputation to precede me, though. ;)
[they will not speak it into existence one syllable further, though. ursula might combust.]
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How? How did this seem so much easier for them? How did it seem so natural for Levi?
There was part of her... that couldn't help feeling jealous, over that.
She agonizes over how to respond, how to even parse that... ]
I haven't told her, no.
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[they're. sometimes good at this, and sometimes very bad at this, and right now not even they are sure where they fall. it's probably fine.]
Besides. I want to let you discuss things on your terms whenever possible.
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Easy. ]
Thank you. I really do appreciate it.
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Be well, Ursula. We'll talk more soon. ♥
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She'd let that fester, in her chest... like always. ]
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