[ It had taken her awhile to get to this point, to thinking she even deserved any of this. She still questioned it, in the darker parts of her soul. But in this moment, dancing formlessly amongst a tapestry of astral bodies, their own shining like the stars she coveted so much...
She could really accept it. All of Levi's affection and adoration. And let her own be effusive, in turn. ]
To be wanted by you... has already helped me so much...
I don't know how anyone couldn't want you. You're kind, you have such a sweet laugh, you have such passion for what you care for... [levi brought one hand up into chariot's hair and brushed it back tenderly, and they just smiled at her as their hand resettled where it had come from.]
You're gorgeous, too. And I can't thank you enough for showing this part of yourself to me. [one day, they thought, they would learn about what chariot was hiding. but it would be forever at her own pace, always, every time.]
I count myself lucky to be where I am. In the middle of our own personal galaxy.
[ If they had been anywhere else, she likely would have wilted into the dirt from Levi's unabashed praise, but she finds herself taking it in, letting it warm her further, letting herself bloom within it, "shine" even more.
Certainly there were parts of her she still hadn't shared with Levi. And they did deserve to know. And she'd get there, hopefully. It all felt... possible, in that moment. That Leviathan wouldn't look at Chariot with the same cold eyes she regarded her own self with, a times... but old her, keep her afloat, and maybe someday... clear away that darkness.
Maybe... it felt nice to dream about it. ]
Levi... [ She took in a slow, steady breath, just drinking in the other's presence, her words, the physical and metaphysical blending into one. ]
I... I want you to kiss me... To do anything you wish... I want to get lost in your affection... if only for tonight...
[they looked surprised at the request, and they felt their heart jump into their throat. their eyes widened. they'd expected to run into this problem, but not for... not for a long time. this was a lot. their hands stopped cupping chariot's face, holding it only a little looser, but they didn't want to pull away entirely. they just weren't a fool; they knew what people meant when they said things like that.]
[they'd heard it from yang more than enough times, though not in exactly those words.]
[they breathed in, shaky and uncertain.]
Do you remember when I said that there were going to be some things I didn't think I could give you...? [they felt their shoulders tensing and wished, very quietly, that they were anywhere else in the galaxy.] I think... I'm sorry. I think what you're asking for might be one of them.
[ Honestly, it was Levi's reminder that found Chariot's own nerves, jerking her back like reigns, and her face went so red she might be mistaken for a tomato. She shook her head immediately, raising a hand as if in defense, palm open and out. ]
N-no, I don't-! I don't mean, l-like that, I was just... b-being poeiticohmygoshI'msosorry!
[ She shook her head again, and then just... sort of buried herself in Levi's shoulder, screaming. The break in her reverie also broke the spell, the natural state of Levi's apartment fading back into light, the illusion falling away. ]
I-I just... wanted you to hold me, to do whatever you liked, I definitely didn't mean to ask that of you, I'm so sorry!
[that mutter, breathless and quiet, was maybe the most open and honest thing they'd said in a while—not that everything else hadn't been directly from their heart, but there was a difference between trying to be kind and understanding and just letting everything drop and going with the first instinct.]
[they wrapped their arms tightly against chariot as the apartment faded back into view, but they weren't able to see most of it through eyes that closed too quickly. with chariot's face buried against levi's shoulder, they could easily reach the side of her head, and they kissed it firmly.]
I'm sorry. Oh, my god, I'm so sorry. I just... I was so wrong. [they were trying their level best not to laugh at all, but anything that snuck through was tinged with relief rather than anything else. they kissed the side of her head again, unmoving.] Please forgive me. Yes. Of course I'll do... everything else with you. Of course.
[ It takes her a moment to regain any semblance of composure, but by the time she does... Well. She's also laughing. Brightly even. She's still embarrassed, still hiding her face in Levi's shoulder, but... honestly, why was this so... relieving? ]
Levi, kiss me right on the mouth.
[ Said through a bubbling giggle that can't be contained. ]
[they're laughing. she's laughing. there's happiness and light between them after something that could've been so much worse. what other choice does leviathan have? they're smiling, and they take chariot's chin in their hand, and they guide their lips together.]
[the first one is shallow because they still want to laugh and the corners of their lips are stretched out in a smile. the second lingers a little longer, feels a little more complete. the third is much like the ones that have come before. it's steady, and it deepens, and as it does they feel their body relax and their eyes slide closed. their fingers move into chariot's hair instead of pressing against it, and they truly feel like they could do this for days.]
[they give her a fourth after a second for air, and they try very hard to make this one perfect. one long kiss, now both their hands on either side of chariot's face, pulling her closer, fingers curling against the sides of her head in her hair. they press into it like it's the last chance they'll get, even though there's nothing but the promise of a future for the rest of them. they sing the body electric. they will not let her off until they charge her full with the charge of the soul.]
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[ It had taken her awhile to get to this point, to thinking she even deserved any of this. She still questioned it, in the darker parts of her soul. But in this moment, dancing formlessly amongst a tapestry of astral bodies, their own shining like the stars she coveted so much...
She could really accept it. All of Levi's affection and adoration. And let her own be effusive, in turn. ]
To be wanted by you... has already helped me so much...
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You're gorgeous, too. And I can't thank you enough for showing this part of yourself to me. [one day, they thought, they would learn about what chariot was hiding. but it would be forever at her own pace, always, every time.]
I count myself lucky to be where I am. In the middle of our own personal galaxy.
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Certainly there were parts of her she still hadn't shared with Levi. And they did deserve to know. And she'd get there, hopefully. It all felt... possible, in that moment. That Leviathan wouldn't look at Chariot with the same cold eyes she regarded her own self with, a times... but old her, keep her afloat, and maybe someday... clear away that darkness.
Maybe... it felt nice to dream about it. ]
Levi... [ She took in a slow, steady breath, just drinking in the other's presence, her words, the physical and metaphysical blending into one. ]
I... I want you to kiss me... To do anything you wish... I want to get lost in your affection... if only for tonight...
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[they'd heard it from yang more than enough times, though not in exactly those words.]
[they breathed in, shaky and uncertain.]
Do you remember when I said that there were going to be some things I didn't think I could give you...? [they felt their shoulders tensing and wished, very quietly, that they were anywhere else in the galaxy.] I think... I'm sorry. I think what you're asking for might be one of them.
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N-no, I don't-! I don't mean, l-like that, I was just... b-being poeiticohmygoshI'msosorry!
[ She shook her head again, and then just... sort of buried herself in Levi's shoulder, screaming. The break in her reverie also broke the spell, the natural state of Levi's apartment fading back into light, the illusion falling away. ]
I-I just... wanted you to hold me, to do whatever you liked, I definitely didn't mean to ask that of you, I'm so sorry!
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[that mutter, breathless and quiet, was maybe the most open and honest thing they'd said in a while—not that everything else hadn't been directly from their heart, but there was a difference between trying to be kind and understanding and just letting everything drop and going with the first instinct.]
[they wrapped their arms tightly against chariot as the apartment faded back into view, but they weren't able to see most of it through eyes that closed too quickly. with chariot's face buried against levi's shoulder, they could easily reach the side of her head, and they kissed it firmly.]
I'm sorry. Oh, my god, I'm so sorry. I just... I was so wrong. [they were trying their level best not to laugh at all, but anything that snuck through was tinged with relief rather than anything else. they kissed the side of her head again, unmoving.] Please forgive me. Yes. Of course I'll do... everything else with you. Of course.
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Levi, kiss me right on the mouth.
[ Said through a bubbling giggle that can't be contained. ]
Before I stick my foot in it again.
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[the first one is shallow because they still want to laugh and the corners of their lips are stretched out in a smile. the second lingers a little longer, feels a little more complete. the third is much like the ones that have come before. it's steady, and it deepens, and as it does they feel their body relax and their eyes slide closed. their fingers move into chariot's hair instead of pressing against it, and they truly feel like they could do this for days.]
[they give her a fourth after a second for air, and they try very hard to make this one perfect. one long kiss, now both their hands on either side of chariot's face, pulling her closer, fingers curling against the sides of her head in her hair. they press into it like it's the last chance they'll get, even though there's nothing but the promise of a future for the rest of them. they sing the body electric. they will not let her off until they charge her full with the charge of the soul.]