[ Ursula wondered when she became so much less adverse to having guests... no longer living alone was definitely having its impact on her, to be sure. When she greeted Monika at the door, she was wearing a rather simple set of black silk pajamas, the scent of dark roast pouring out from the small, studio apartment that she and Fang mostly shared. It was a bit of a mess inside... ]
[Coffee! She'd wondered about that every now and again, wishing how Yuri would've brought that along to school instead of tea. Not that tea was bad or anything. They were both good for certain situations!
[ Ursula came in with the mugs, setting down on the small table just beside the telescope. She'd taken care to put away her notes for the evening, so it was clear enough to have room for both their cups, Ursula settling herself in the chair across from Monika. ]
A young man named Hiccup helped me put it together, along with the glass maker in town who helps fix my glasses. It's got enough power to get a great view even past the usual haze over town.
Well, at least in this world and mine... [ Ursula hummed, sipping her coffee. ]
I've been fascinated with them since I was little. My parents even named me after an asterism. [ Halfway true, at least. True enough that it worked for both names. ]
[ That last statement told Ursula a great deal without having to say things directly. While she may have been off the mark in literal terms, it didn't take much to notice what Monika meant by Ursula's fortune. ]
I'm more than happy to share those blessings with anyone I can. Helping others forget their troubles...
[ Ursula didn't want to argue with her how 'messed up' Monika was. She honestly didn't know, even if what she'd interacted with seemed like an awkward, lonely teenaged girl. She didn't want to presume she knew better. But she did know something for certain, reaching across the table to rest a hand on Monika's. ]
[There it was again. The comforting warmth that she'd been wanting to experience for so long. It felt so nice, unlike anything she'd ever experienced before.
Part of her really did want to come clean. To just talk about all the things she'd done. But would they still be around afterward? Would you they still be her friend?
She was so afraid.]
I'm really happy that you're here. You and the friends I've made.
[ She probably hadn't meant to say it, but Ursula had the intuition to figure it out, anyways. But it still stung a little to hear it said so frankly, Ursula's grip tightening just slightly, hopefully in a way that reassured her that Ursula wasn't going to be scared away by it. ]
I'm really glad you haven't. I want to keep being your friend, if you'll allow me.
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We could, um... maybe go out. Or just relax and talk?
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Nevermind, forget I said anything.
[Stupid.]
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And looking for an excuse to take a break.
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We can come up with something, I bet! Although it might be difficult to find somewhere to go at this hour...
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[She's awfully excited about this, too. Even if, again, it's the middle of the damn night.]
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How do you take your coffee?
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But really, how didshe like her coffee?]
How about cream and sugar?
[That's a good, default option, right?]
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[She just sort of came up with a number on the spot.]
How about 3 of each?
[It wouldn't be all that bitter with that, she figured.]
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You can sit out on the balcony of you'd like. I've got my telescope set up there.
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Alright!
[She made her way on over to the balcony and took Ursula up on that offer. She'd never really used one of them before and...]
Oh! Wow!
[She'd never really seen the stars like this, before.]
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A young man named Hiccup helped me put it together, along with the glass maker in town who helps fix my glasses. It's got enough power to get a great view even past the usual haze over town.
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Do the stars...
Do they always look like that?
So beautiful?
[She finally tears herself away from the telescope.]
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I've been fascinated with them since I was little. My parents even named me after an asterism. [ Halfway true, at least. True enough that it worked for both names. ]
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Now I can't help wonder if my name has any special meaning. I never really took the time to research and find out.
[At this point, she just heads to the table and sits across from her.]
You're... really lucky. To have all that.
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I'm more than happy to share those blessings with anyone I can. Helping others forget their troubles...
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Monika reaches for the coffee and takes the cup in both hands, though she doesn't quite start to drink it yet
She just... stares at the contents.]
I wish I had met someone like you earlier in my life.
Maybe then I wouldn't have been so messed up.
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I'm here now... That's what matters.
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Part of her really did want to come clean. To just talk about all the things she'd done. But would they still be around afterward? Would you they still be her friend?
She was so afraid.]
I'm really happy that you're here. You and the friends I've made.
It makes me want to be here, too.
I haven't always felt that way.
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It sounds like you're healing, though. It will be slow, but I have faith you'll be able to maintain it.
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Sometimes I wonder about that. It would be so much easier to just give up.
Honestly I'm kind of surprised I haven't killed myself already.
[Her eyes widen, as she registers what she'd just said. But it's too late to take back, now.]
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I'm really glad you haven't. I want to keep being your friend, if you'll allow me.
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It wasn't supposed to be this way.]
That...
[She squeezes back with her hand, and uses her other one to wipe away the tears forming in her eyes as she lifts her head to finally look at Ursula.]
Thank you. It makes me really happy to hear you say that.
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